My name is Holly.

I’m fifteen.

I’m straight.

I love music, art and people.

I’m in year 10, and I’m taking Triple Science, Photography, Geography, French and Business Studies. With of course core subjects like Maths and English etc.  I’m not really sure about the future, a lot of things interest me, but I’m still unsure of where I’m going.

I have a totally fucked up friendship group, we all love each other..a bit too much. To illustrate, my friend Holly said “If one of us gets sick, we’ll all catch it within a week, we all drink from the same bottles, share fags and get off with each other!”. There’s some really good memories, loads of drama, sex, fights, cheating, accidents, police, tears, blood and laughs. 

Chances are, you really don’t care about any of this stuff, but writing this is good for me, I love writing everything out so I can assess it. This is me. And if reading this back tells me I need to change something, then I’ll work on it. But that’s up to me, I have no care for people telling me to change who I am. I’ll see my errors and if i’m going to mess up big time I trust that I have people who will help me out. They know who they are. 

My family’s totally fucked. 

I’m very strange, I like weird things and weird people. I love to just stop, and take in the beauty of the things around me. I strongly believe that everything has beauty, even if most people can’t see it, it’s there. 

I’m a right fucking chatterbox, like i’ll walk up to anyone and start a conversation with them. Also…I swear a lot. 

I don’t have many aims for the future, I’m just taking things as they come, and enjoying my life as much as I can.

Love’s great, but so’s being single. I love the freedom of being single, I can do what I want. It’s nice having a boyfriend to cuddle up to, and to look out for you, but I’ve realise that I don’t need it. I can do perfectly fine on my own too:)

“It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on.”—Nicholas Sparks

Don’t make judgement about me just because I self-harm, or I skip meals, or pray every night before I sleep, or have a blog full of unusual pictures. If you want to judge me, just talk to me, you’ll see who I am, and then your opinion of me can be whatever you want it to be.